Today is the worst day of my life. My wonderfuly husband, my best friend, the father to my son was told that he has only months left to live. The chemo isn't working and is destroying his liver. He is now jaundiced. The doctors have switched his meds and have taken him off the pain patches because he has no fat left on his body. It's not absorbing the medication. He has now lost 45 lbs since this all started. They've also put him on the "pot" pill. Something that actually made him laugh. I hope with all my heart that these meds ease the pain that he is in.
How can this be happening to us? We moved to Dauphin with so many hopes and dreams and have never been happier. It's all changed now. How do I go on without him and keep a semi normal life for my precious little boy? I am so scared of life without him. I can't even think of my son right now and what it's going to be like for him. I'm just devastated. Jas is in shock, scared, upset. I can't help him or make it go away. All I've been doing all day is crying or holding him.
He's going for a cat scan tomorrow morning on his liver. That's their main concern right now. We meet with the doctors tomorrow afternoon to see what they are planning. Thursday morning, a cancercare social worker is calling me for therapy. Braydon is also being set up with a child therapist and am waiting to find out when that is.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm lost.
2 comments:
I do not know what to say. I am truly sorry. I know that seems insignificant right now, but just know that there are lots of people there for you when you need a shoulder to cry on. Nothing will ever take your husbands place in your heart, and no one can do anything to change what is happening in your life. I hope you will find an outlet for some sort of comfort for husband, your son and yourself. I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers. (((HUGS))) If you need ANYTHING, let me know.
Oh Jodi-word can not express how sorry I am to hear this, please know that we are here for you, to lend a ear when ever you may need one.hugs to you jodi.
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